miss independent

There are a few things I truly love about myself. One of them is how independent I am. :)

"Let me do it."
"I wanna try it now."
"I can do it myself!"

Common, very common phrases you'll hear from me. I can't remember a time when I didn't rise to any challenge and 'try' it for myself. Most often I keep at a job, skill or challenge until I can lick it, stamp it, and say "Whoohoo, I can do that now!"

Yesterday I spent a very trying afternoon with my ex. It was TOUGH. A lot of talking and hashing over things...I could have done without. Anyway, on my way out of Spokane (where I pick up the kids) I was crying and praying, "OHHHH GOOOODD, WHYYYYYY."

Disclaimer: I'm such a mess in these moments, I don't even want to explain myself. :)

Then an ultimate Charlie Brown/Jonah moment. My front driver side tire pops and goes flat.
I could hear the soft tinkly ballad of the Charlie Brown theme. I swear.

I pull over to a parking lot. I sit there for a second. I'm still getting texts from my ex...which are making me feel horrible and wishing I could crawl somewhere and just give in.

Then...I'm like, you know what? I can do this! So I ignore calls and texts from Sean. (which only made me feel worse...and angry) I roll up my sleeves and start changing my flat tire.

I've only seen my daddy do this one time! But the challenge was there.

The hardest part was getting the lugnuts off. I prayed for SUPERHUMAN strength. And God granted that.

The rest was cake. It was interesting though because only one person stopped to ask if I needed help and I was like..."Noooo, I can do this!!" At first I questioned it, was I being prideful? I don't think so...I think it's just in my nature to feel challenged and accomplish what I set out to do.
I told my girls that we don't "need no stinkin' boys". Though in the future it might be nice since I know I can change a tire! But I don't know if I want to. :D

Make love, not war!
<3 Sarah Lynn

PS. My ex apologized for being snotty. haha